Why did she " Divorce Me "

Chapter - 32

Adhira Pov.:-

( Varun's mother )

After coming back from Varun's house ... I am seating in his bedroom which is in my father-in-law's

house .

I am hurt .. no hurt is a small word to express my pain ... Actually it's killing me , my son .. Varun can do

this ... How!? .

How can he steps this low , I have never thought of him to do such sins ..

It's all happened because of me ... If I had taught him good things , good manners , and haven't choose

my career over him

.. than maybe ... Perhaps today he would have been a good person, a human being, and a good

husband.

I have ruined my son's life by own carelessness .

I still remember .. I wanted to become a cardiologist but at the age of 19 I got married to my husband

Mr. Gyan Arora ... Forcefully by my uncle aunty as there words used to rule in my family while my

parents can't support me ..

Our marriage was a arranged marriage , but in the last , after trying hard not to fall for my husband ... I

fall in love with him ... Completely.

And i got pregnant with Varun .... I was at my 7 month pregnancy when my lovely husband got to know

about my dream ...

Why he didn't got to know about it before because ... I was quite reserved about telling about my likes

or dislikes or about my opinions or about my life to anyone.

So, he support me and encourage me to make my dream come true .. but my father-in-law apposed it ..

Both my husband and father-in-law fight over my studying topic ... And end up making a deal ...

Which said ' if I passed entrance exam then only I will study another wise no ' all thanks my mother-in-

law.

After the delivery ... I was selected in an government medical College by passing my exam.

On that time Varun was 4 month infant... But I have to leave the house as my college was in the other

state ... Which was top second medical College in whole India.

I wanted to take him with me as he was so small but my in-laws was against it ... At that time I had

made my mind on giving up my study but my husband assured me that he will take his good care .

At last I had to leave him here in this house .. with his grandparents and with his father .

I used to come house at my vacations and my that time is only for my son... Varun ...

We both used to play with his toy balls ,cars and there is a funny thing which he loved to do ....

Hahahaha.... He used to covered his eyes with his hands and started to shout ' mommy help me ... I

can't see anything , it's dark here ' but he didn't removed his hands over his eyes .

See this much innocent he was but all ruined by myself ...

Although I am living my dream but there is no peace in my heart why ! ... Because I have lost the true

happiness or the time when I can make a happy memories with my son ...

I forgot that ' with the time our dreams also change '...

And after giving birth to Varun my doctor becoming dream was turned into becoming a good mother of

my son but I neglect it ..

How inhuman I was ... *Sob*.

Now I looked back at the time when Varun was small there is very small time which i has spend with

him ... In which , I am feeling him , or caressing his sleeping face , or playing with him ... His first word

was maa , his first step .. him all lovely dovely talk with his both siblings ... That's it ... No more

memories .

Why ...

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It became hard when he turned 3 year old ... He used to cry for me saying ' mommy please don't leave

me ... Mommy please take me with you '

*Sob*

*Sob*

*Sob*

If I had left my study then I have my innocent and pure hearted son with me ...

My son used to cry for his mother love but me .. I was blind behind my dream .. I have become a best

cardiologist but I cursed my innocent son's heart under it ...

When I came back after completing my MBBS...

I hadn't visit home for 2 years because Varun usually used to cry when I had to leave the house to

came back for the study

And it hurts the most seeing his crying face .

And My father-in-law had said me on that time ' If you really want to study then do your study, don't

come home again and again, to make this child cry for you ... '

That's why I stop visiting home ...

After reaching home I was so shocked when I didn't found my son at home ... ... My in-laws and his

father has send him to boarding school at the age of 5 ..

That's was really shocking because Varun was an apple of eye ... No one can see tears in his eyes

then what happened which make them to send Varun in the boarding school .

I was so angry on them ... Even my mother-in-law didn't had any idea about it ... And both the man's

didn't opened their glued mouth .

I tried to take him back to home but Varun apposed saying ' I don't want to go in that house and I am

very happy here mom , go away '

That was the first time when he had shout on me with angry face and he didn't call me maa or mommy

like he used to call me before with love .

His those words were not sounding like a small kids words ... only his body was a kid's body .

Every kid used to visit their parents , and went to their house at vacations but Varun ... He never come

back house in his vacation by his own will .

I used to visit him there in his school hostel but stopped when I again got pregnant with my twins ... As

my gynecologist strictly ordered be for bed rest .

After my delivery Varun visited me in hospital that time his face is all emotionless but his face bloomed

in happiness when he saw his little siblings in the small crib .

' maa look she is looking like you ... Beautiful ' Varun had said in his baby voice while patting Kashvi's

cheeks to make her grab his one finger in her small fist .

That was the first and last time when Varun had talked with me in his true self ... But only for his

siblings he used to visit home in his vacation willingly.

I continued my study but also took care of my twins ..

Kashvi and Kabir both get mother love from me and the care and love which a little infant needs .

I also showered my all maternity on both of them while missing my Varun...

A mother truely loves her all kids equally but her one child really has a special and reserved place in

her heart .

And in my heart Varun has that place ... And still he do have .

Without my knowledge my son ... Went far away from me , I know he loves me , and cares about me

but don't know what happened ...

Why he went to boarding school , why he never talked properly with his father and grandfather.

No matter how hard I tried to put all things in a proper track but all went in vain ..

Although Varun never disobeyed their words but he never showed that affection and love or care which

a kids has in its their heart for his father and grandfather .

There is always a fire or rage covered his eyes whenever his father or grandpa talked with him or

asked or tell him to do something.

I am looking his childhood pics ... He was a good child till he was 4 ... But I don't know what went

wrong and all things messed up .

*Sob*

In one pic he is cuddling kashvi while sleeping ...

He really adores kashvi a lot ...

He had always treat kashvi and Kabir like his children .

Varun's pic ...

In each pic he is looking so cute ... My baby ..

*Sob*...

Mommy really miss you ..

I can't blamed him for what he had done to Amoli ... It's all happened only because of me because I am

failed as a mother ...

I failed to teach him , give respect to women's , good manners and all the good things which make us a

good human being ... and him A gentleman.

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Advaith's Pov.:-

I came out from the police station after giving them my sister's information which they need to find her .

I am also searching her , everywhere ... Even at my uncle's house where she never visited after her

bad encounter with our cousin sister .

She not here ... Where did she went ...

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I give life to my car and roared on the road while looking around , in hope that dii is around and I will

took her back home .

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I entered inside my home to get engulfed in a tight hug ...

I looked down to see Vahini... my little kiddo is hugging me .

I felt little wetness on my stomach and look down to see vahini's head is over my stomach ...

' is she crying !? ' I asked to myself confused ... Because there is no sound is coming from her mouth ..

' it's not the way she usually cry ... Because whenever she cries ... Her crying roared always gives a

earthquake to this house .'

I looked at her red , tears dripping wet face after forcefully braking the hug... Her face is trembling

specially her lips .

" What happened to the queen of this house ? " I asked her while lifting her chin up by my hand..

She didn't said anything and motioned me to carry her in my arms.

" What I not going to carry you ... You are heavy .. ! " I said to annoy her more ...

And expect her fire back comments... But nothing came..

' something is really wrong to her ' my sixth sense said .

" What happened to my kiddo ... Panda ... Hey ... Stop crying panda bear .. awwww ... Who hurts you ,

tell me I will break there teeth " I said her while carrying her in my arms and trying hard to stop her

weeping while going to my room...

I made her sit on my bed ... " Now tell me what happened !? ... " I asked her ..

She face palmed her face and broke down in tears...

I hugged her while seating beside her .. and said her " aww my panda bear is really strong ... Tell me

why are you crying Babu ... You are strong right than stop crying my panda bear ... " ..

" Where is my moo ... I want my moo back bibi (brother in Vahini language or advaith's pat name given

by Vahini ) " she said while crying ..

' did someone in my family told her all this or what ? ' this one question punched out in my brain .

" What happened why are you talking like this ... Huh ? " I asked her while Patting her back and hoping

that she still doesn't know about Amoli .novelbin

Because if she will know than it will be hard for all of us to handle her .

" You know what maa and papa both where fighting ... When you left home .. I don't know what they

where talking as they both where fight in there room ... But I heard maa saying ' I don't know anything I

want my Amoli back ' ...

And she was crying badly .. I also want my moo back , did something happened to my moo ? " Vahini

said and asked me ..

" No nothing happened Babu ... Don't worry maa is worrying about dii because she has went out of

country with .. hmm.. her husband " I said and last line with clenched jaw ...

" Ohhhh.. "

" But why maa was crying ? " She asked again...

" Maybe because she is missing her " I reasoned her and make her sleep...

Dii is not here ... I have to handle the things with patience .

" It all happened because of us ... Only if .. " I heard my father's words and I knocked on his room door

.. to make him stop in his words .

" Come inside advaith " papa said while cleaning his wet face with his hands ...

I went to them and pored water in glass and gave them to drink .. both drink the water ..

" Stop .. doing regret on the spilled milk .. the important thing is that we need to find her reather to cry

on our past doing " I said ...

" You're right advaith ... I am sorry beta .. if I had listened your words than my amu will be with us today

" papa said ...

" And be careful about Vahini ... If she got to know about this then she is become crazy and will make

all of us crazy with her aggressive nature " I said and tell them that Vahini was a step away to check

our lie .

Me and papa talk more ... Discussing about where to find her .. ..

And we planned to go my grandmother's hometown ... To search Amoli dii.

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Pallavi Pov.:-

(Varun's grandmother)

" See what have your ego done to that poor soul " I chide on my husband who is sitting on the bed in

our bedroom.

" I had warned you ,that Amoli can't handle him ... And what you had said that ' she will change him by

her innocence , love and care .. '

But here it turned upside down, he did not change, but he replaced pure innocent Happy bubbly Amoli

into all broken one " I breathout all my thoughts on my husband's head .

" Love ... Please calm down ... We will find her ...

And I am sorry for my rude and arrogant behaviour ..

I never thought that Varun would abuse her because no one in this family has ever committed such

sins.

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Just like when I was married, I was not happy with our marriage because of your simple color, but I

never beat you up and even today I don't touch you without your will even though you know and I too

that I'm blind in your love

...

Same thing I thought the way you have changed me into a good man and husband maybe she will also

change our Varun into a good man ...

But I was wrong , I can't do anything ... Apart to prey for amoli's happiness and safety . " My husband

said to me ...

" Yes you changed not by me ... You changed by yourself.. for us , for me because you wanted to

change , you want to live a true happy life with me that why you changed but ...

Here Varun he never wants to change for anyone ... Even not for his mother who he loves most .. then

how can you expect that he will change for Amoli ...

Who he hate the most only because you have choosen her for him .. then how can you expect it from

him .

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And what do you think .. what is Amoli .. she is not a god or some magician who will change him only

by clicking her fingers or by burning spells with magic wand on him " I shout on him while resting my

hands on my hips ...

He hold me by my waist as I am standing infront of him while he is seating on my bed ..

He hide his face in my stomach...

" I am feeling really guilty ... I did all this because I .. I ..

In my own selfishness , you know what when ..

Our younger daughter's marriage proposal was broken by the groom's family, as he said that his son

had eloped with his lover

I was very angry at the boy

Because I assumed that she ran away because our daughter's tone is a little darker .. So, I found her

and saw that she had married a girl ...

I just tried to scare her .. to know if he really loves that girl or not ...

Then his wife suddenly said that she was pregnant and started begging me for mercy ...

And the news of her pregnancy gave me an unknown pleasure... but how could I leave that boy without

teaching him a good lesson

So, just to scare him I said that I want his child, only then I will let them go, due to fear to loose his love

he got agreed .

I swear I had done that only to scare them as a punishment for being coward ... Because if he didn't

wanted to marry our daughter so , he should had came to me and discussed his problem with me .

...

And when that child was born... I swear .. that was a coincidence... because by coincidence that day I

went to hospital , in the same hospital, our daughter-in-law who gave birth to our twin granddaughter

and grandson a short time ago and then I know that they are also in the same hospital when I saw my

friend there standing in the lobby...

It turned out that they too have given birth to a girl child. So I went to see that newborn baby because I

had an affection for that child from the starting.

But when I saw that the children have beautiful blue eyes that remind me of our Varun ... So, I fixed the

wedding of that little kiddo with our Varun ... Who was also present with us on that hospital." my

husband blast the secret bomb on my head ...

" What ... You did this much and you didn't tell me anything ... You .. you bad man .. " I said while

gasping for air .. to much information ...

" Don't say like this love ... You know what yes I had fixed our daughter's marriage but that was only in

words but before I gave you that news ... The marriage proposal was already broken so, I just let it

pass like it ... " He said ...

" Okay ..

don't talk with me ..

It's your punishment ..

- you will sleep on the couch or anywhere but not with me and near me .

- no touchy touchy until you don't find Amoli .

- no talk ... " I said and his face lost its colour ... Serves him right .

" Have some mercy ... Please delete the last one .. love .. how will I live without talking to you .. " he

plead to me with sad facr .. but I just gave him hard stares ...

" Okay I will " he said and got up and went out from the room .. ...

' I also can't live without talking with him , can't sleep without his warm embrace , always wants his

kisses to feel that I am still alive ..

It's also my punishment because I couldn't stop you doing such sins .... Because we all have ruined

amoli's life knowingly or unknowingly ... ' I thought and moved to look at the dark angry sky who is

ready to burst rain down on the earth .

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