Female Novel
Chapter 1994
"I love Gordan very much. I fell in love with him at first sight." Vivian clasped the cup in her hand tightlyand took a deep breath.
Luca nodded without interrupting her.
“I never thought that the man I fell in love with at first sight would be interested in me. Gordan came upto me and struck up a conversation with me. He has a fine sense of humor, and he didn't despise mefor my ugly looks. Even though it was unbelievable, I fell even deeper in love with him when I met himfor the second time. But later I learned that Gordan was only teasing me when he said he liked me.Still, I didn't mind. I've never asked for anything in my whole life. I'm ugly, so I don't have the right tospeak. But when Gordan told me that he didn't like me and he was just fooling around, I came up withan idea." Vivian did not know Luca was actually Bianca. That was why she summarized it andexplained her past as well as how she met Gordan.
"You kept him by your side?" Luca asked. She had heard about their past before.
"Yes. Gordan was good at fighting, but Ray has more capable men around him. I said I wanted him, soGordan was left with no choice but to stay by my side. I thought he would be able to notice me anddisregard my looks as long as I kept him around. But many years have passed and he still hasn't fallenfor me. Instead, the hatred he has for me grows every day. Sometimes, when I ask him to keep mecompany, it's as though Ray is carrying a gun behind him and forcing him to do it. Even so, I'd behappy because at least he was still beside me." Teardrops fell from Vivian's eyes. She was happiestwhen she got to see Gordan every day.
Luca nodded and thought to herself that Vivian was too humble.
However, she could not tell her.
Luca's gestures were telling Vivian that she was still listening to her. Hence, Vivian continued, "But Ijust found out that my happiness is built on Gordan's pain. He has been suffering all this time, beingtogether with an ugly woman he isn't in love with. My happiness is his pain. So, I finally decided to giveup on my happiness. That way, Gordan doesn't have to suffer anymore. I decided to let him go. Gordanshould be happy now."
Luca was surprised. Vivian had decided to let him go?
Luca thought Gordan had done something to upset Vivian, and that was why she was hiding. She didnot expect Vivian had let him go.
"You've decided to split up with Mr. Norton?" Luca asked carefully.
"It's a divorce. I've signed the divorce papers. And I'm guessing that he should've seen them by nowand signed his name on them. He'll be able to hand in the divorce agreement soon. There'll be nothingleft between us after this," said Vivian. Tears were constantly streaming down her face.
Vivian was really letting him go this time.
“But you're reluctant," said Luca.
Vivian smiled bitterly, and her tears could not stop falling. "It's hard for me. But I feel sorry for makingsuffer for so many years. Loving someone means making them happy and not letting them suffer. Irealized that I've made a mistake. I want to make up for it. But the best compensation is to break upwith him. That's what I did."
"But you're in pain." Luca looked at Vivian as she cried. Vivian was not considered pretty, and shelooked funny when she was crying like a clown on stage.
However, Luca could feel how painful it was for her to leave someone she loved.
Luca was forced to leave Luke back then too. The pain lasted for three years. Even Nyla's birth couldnot bring much comfort to her heart.
It was only until she came back to him that the pain subsided. However, she only came here becauseshe was assigned a mission to harm Luke. That was why Luca did not feel much happier even thoughLuke was right beside her.
There was only guilt and reluctance.
Luca knew exactly how Vivian felt now.
"I'll get through this. I don't want Ray to know that I miss Gordan even after making my decision. That'swhy I chose to stay in a hotel. I plan to go back home after a few days." Vivian took a deep breath. Sheshould stop crying now.
Vivian had been crying all night. She should not be crying again.
As a grown-up, crying could never solve problems. Vivian had to learn to get over her feelings forGordan.
"You didn't rest well last night, right?" Luca asked.
Vivian was slightly surprised. She thought Luca would comfort her or give her some suggestions aftershe told her everything, but she did not.
"Yes." Vivian nodded. Luca seemed to be different from the others.
"Have you eaten breakfast?" Luca asked again.
Vivian shook her head.
Luca looked at the telephone beside her. She picked it up and said, "Let me order breakfast for you."
"Huh?" Luca dialed the number and made the call before Vivian could come back to her senses andfigure out what Luca was doing.
Luca looked at the menu and ordered breakfast.
Luca put down the phone after the call ended and said, "Taking a rest is all that matters now. You canheal the pain in your heart, but you can't hurt your body in the meantime. Otherwise, that's not calledhealing. You'd be damaging your body. Have your breakfast, then go to sleep."
Vivian listened to Luca and could not help but have a feeling.
Luca seemed to know very well what Vivian needed.
It seemed like the two of them had known each other for a long time. Luca did not comfort her and onlyreminded her what she needed to do.
After a while, room service delivered the breakfast here.
Vivian wanted to open the door, but Luca said, “Sit down. Let me do this."
Luca opened the door and took Vivian's breakfast from the waiter.
Then, she placed it on the coffee table and said, "Have some. I'll leave after you finish your breakfast."
Vivian nodded. The breakfast Luca ordered for her was high in nutritional value. She probably did nothave to eat her lunch after having this.novelbin
Luca knew her well, indeed. Vivian might have hurt herself by going on a hunger strike if no one wassupervising her.
Vivian had always thought that her heart would slowly go numb once she numbed her body.
However, it seemed like Luca did not think so.
Vivian took a few bites and remembered that Luca had just come out from the clinic just now. Hence,she asked, "You went to the clinic nearby just now?"
"Yes." Luca nodded.
"Are you feeling unwell?" Vivian asked with concern.
"Not really. I'm looking for a medicine. But the pharmacies around here don't seem to have them. Ithought of going to a clinic to ask, then I ran into you," replied Luca.
"Is it hard to find the medicine you want?" Vivian asked with curiosity.
"I'm sure the hospital has it. But the hospital won't give it to me if I'm not seriously ill. It can't be boughtwith just money," answered Luca. She wondered if Vivian could get the medicine for her.
However, Luke would probably find out about it if she asked for Vivian's help.