Female Novel
Chapter 1585
Leah was flustered by the unexpected generosity. She had a feeling Ernest was feeling a littleemotional that night.
The feeling of being held in his arms was extremely comforting. Leah really wanted to throw herselfinto his embrace, but she stopped thinking about it and went to grab a bite of pudding instead.
She hoped he would hold her like this all the time, making time stop without any movement. Shewanted to immerse herself in this moment forever.
However, she had to be rational. As a girl, she should stop when necessary. She had to be asnatural as they come to be respected, especially by guys.
A girl should be reserved. Being reserved didn't mean she was petulant, but rather it was a sign ofself-respect.
This time, Ernest hugged Leah tightly. He gently caressed Leah's back, caring immensely for her.
It was the first time that he had felt so intensely for a girl. Ernest was amazed at how Leah and herpetite body was able to support herself through tremendous hardships.
Ernest admired her deeply for everything she had to endure.
"Girls don't always have to be strong, it's okay to show your weaknesses sometimes." Ernest finallyspoke in a low and husky voice.
He wanted to let Leah know that he was freely giving her emotional support.
However, Leah responded, "I've always wanted to be vulnerable even just for a little bit, but can'tyou only be weak when you're alone? It's not my style to throw myself into a man's arms."
Ernest was moved and helpless at the same time.
It was for the best that she didn't carelessly fall into a man's arms, but he cared too deeply for her.
"Then, if you ever run into a similar situation like this, you're always able to call me." Ernest said.
Secretly, he hoped that if Leah were to encounter something like this, there would be a chance forher to vent to him.
As a listener, he wanted to at least tell Leah that he would be there for her.
Leah wasn't alone.
Leah laughed and asked jokingly, "So do I hug the air if I call you?"
Ernest was dumbfounded and didn't know whether to laugh or cry at her question. He didn't knowhow to respond.
He could never predict what Leah was thinking. He always felt like she had an imaginative mind.
"You don't need to hug the air, I can be a lending ear." Ernest answered Leah's thoughts. "You cantell me anything. I promise I'll keep everything a secret, and I won't laugh at anything."
"If that's the case, I'll call you just to bother you." Leah raised her face and looked at me with asmile. "You won't hate me if it bothers you, will you?"
Ernest could only lower his head. They stared into each other's eyes reflected with shimmer.
They gazed at each other quietly. They shared a deep tacit understanding as if they were oldfriends. Without saying anything, they understood the connection they had in each other's eyes.
He said, "No, I could never hate you."
Leah gave a blink and asked, "Define the length of 'never'."
"A lifetime," said Ernest in a deep voice. "I only have this one life, and I can't promise anything morethan that."
"Haha, you're right. I'm a little touched." Her eyes gleamed as she stared at Ernest. "Then I'll bebothering you often from now on." "Okay." Ernest nodded wholeheartedly.
The two of them continued gazing at each other, feeling more and more flustered as seconds wentby.
Leah then spoke, "Let's go to sleep. I'm getting really tired."
Ernest finally let go of Leah with great reluctance.
"Let's sleep then."
When they returned to the bedroom, Ernest had already tidied up his clothes.
Leah saw his jacket that she had previously thrown inside. In a panic, she threw all of his clotheshaphazardly, causing them to be wrinkled. "I'm really sorry, I messed up your clothes, didn't I?"
Ernest didn't mind. "It's alright. I've already put everything away. But I have to say you really didshock me."
"You were shocked by me?" Leah looked up at him.
"The way you moved so quickly kind of startled me. I thought he was your boyfriend."
"Haha, I just said he wasn't my boyfriend. How could it be? I just didn't want my sister to find outabout anything." Inside, Leah knew she was being
selfish.
Leah knew that if Hogan was aware of Ernest's existence, Rowane would definitely end up knowingtoo. Then her stepmother would be notified in turn, and she had no energy to deal with thatprogression.
She wanted to keep Ernest all to herself.
"No need to explain, I know what you're thinking." Ernest looked at her sincerely.
"Oh?" Leah was shocked. She instinctively asked, "Do you know what I'm thinking about?"
Ernest blinked and looked at Leah's flustered response. He had a feeling she might havemisunderstood him. He smiled and said, "Yes, I know what you're thinking about."
Leah turned away, not daring to look Ernest in the eyes. She replied, "Hehe, I knew you were agood friend. We understand each other so well."
Ernest smiled, she was such a smart girl.
She knew not to point it out to prevent him from getting embarrassed. His heart softened, and hewanted to hold her again.novelbin
However, he knew he had done it today.
Ernest was ecstatic at the news of Hogan not being Leah's boyfriend, but when he heard that Leahwas once attracted to Hogan, her first love, his heart felt somewhat uneasy.
But who didn't have first loves in their youth?
He could only rationalize with himself to let his mind open up.
He had also been in love when he was young.
They laid on the bed and turned off the lights, but neither of them slept.
No one spoke. After some time, Ernest asked, "How is your father now?"
Hearing Ernest's voice in the dark, Leah was taken aback and said, "He's unresponsive, he seemsto be in pain. Sometimes, I think dying would be better than living with such immense pain."
Ernest was a little surprised as he heard her speak.
"I know you'll definitely think I'm being unfilial, but this is sincerely how I think. If it were up to me, Iwould rather die than live without dignity," Leah said softly. "My father has lived his entire life as hepleased. He got a divorce with my mother saying he didn't want her anymore because my aunt gavebirth to his child, my younger sister, who was only thirty days younger than me. What a joke."
Ernest was shocked. "Your dad had an affair while he was married?"
"Well, he never puts himself at fault. This might also be God's punishment for him to suffer throughthis torture as he grows old. He's not going to be able to succeed in finding a woman when his ownheart is failing. Talk about retribution, right?"
"Hmm." Ernest could only hum softly in response.
"I think he fell in love with another woman so he could bring it up to my mom and get an earlydivorce, and I would still respect him as a man. But what did he do? He had an affair, both sideswere occupied, and when I was ten years old my mom found out I had a sister who was just amonth younger than me. Then a third child popped up and he couldn't hide it any longer, so hefinally confessed. He's going to have lots of grandchildren now, ta-da."
Ernest sighed. "What an irresponsible man."
"I know right, unapologetically irresponsible. He only cares about his own happiness." Leah snorted."Ernest, don't men like to seek this rush of stimulation?"
"No. This is different from seeking stimulation." Ernest said, "There are many ways to stimulate yourlife, but there's never a reason to cheat. That falls on who you are as a person." "I think, if my futurehusband falls out of love with me and wants to leave, he can just tell me bluntly. We can still befriends after breaking up. But if he eats my food behind my back, he can say bye-bye to the tiniestshred of mercy I can offer. I will chop his d*ckto pieces."
In the dark, Leah's words sounded exceptionally shameless.
Ernest took a deep breath and felt his body trembling.
This girl's words could scare a man to death, but he also understood what she meant. All in all, shewas an incredibly honest girl.
There was nothing wrong.
"Are you afraid?" Leah asked when she realized Ernest wasn't responding.
"I'm not afraid," said Ernest. "Although I don't wish to be castrated, I admire your courage."