Female Novel
Chapter 708 If I Lose You, My Soul Was Buried When I’m Alive
Amber had a heart-piercing wailing, which was extremely heartbreaking.
Jack forced to hold back tears, his mouth with some blood stain trembled slightly, "But I only want you.
Even if the whole world collapsed someday, I still want you only."
"The child is gone, but we can have another one. I know I’m very selfish. It shouldn’t come from a
soon-to-be father, but if I lose you, my future would be meaningless."
"Without you, it would be like I bury my soul before I am actually died."
If Mr. Ward’s appearance could be called bringing a trace of light into his completely dark world at the
beginning and turning the original world into black and white world.
Then Amber’s company with him no matter what was to add color to his black and white world.
All the memories being with her were unforgettable.
Only through the hardships during the beginning of marriage did Jack know clearly about how much
Amber loved him.
He did hesitate when he made the decision last night.
Everyone would be hesitated, even for one second, when facing this kind of things.
But after being kicked by Director Lansing, his hesitation disappeared, and only Amber’s face left in his
mind.
Without the child, he and Amber would be in pain, they would feel like a knife were piercing their
hearts.
But without Amber, Jack was sure that his world would return to black and white again. No, even
worse, it would be back in complete dark.
Amber was stunned, but she couldn't stop crying.
It was just the struggle gradually weakened.
She has no strength.
She was extremely weak plus she was in the midst of great compassion, she was gradually losing her
strength.
Just a trace of hatred in her eyes while she was looking at Jack.
Jack could see it clearly. That trace of hatred was like a sharp sword which penetrated his heart.
He said, "Please forgive me for being selfish, I did that only because I want you."
Right after he said that.
Amber suddenly raised her head up.
Puff!
Her teeth bit on Jack's shoulder.
In an instant, the pain went down to his bone.
Jack groaned but did not resist it. He endured with resolutely eye sight, letting Amber bite on his
shoulder.
He could feel her anger and hatred.
Jack could even feel Amber's teeth rubbing and chewing on his flesh, and he could hear the slight
crunch from his bones.
If this made you feel better, ok you could bite me!
Jack thought that in his heart, closed his eyes and silently endured it.
He knew Amber's pain, and silently accepting this bite was his way to share the pain for her.
As a husband, but he did not protect his wife and children well, and this bite he took couldn’t even close
to pay his debt!
She was sobbing.
Amber bit on Jack's shoulder and then she loosen her teeth, started whimpering and sobbing by his
shoulder.
Jack could clearly feel that the pressure on his shoulders reduced a lot.
Instead, Amber cried even harder.
Jack tried to adjust his posture, then slowly raised his hands to hug Amber. He gently rubbed on
Amber's back with his right hand.
"Sorry, it's my fault, I failed to protect you both."
"I knew you wanted to protect your children, but I made the decision. Everything was my fault."
"I only want you, even the child is gone, as long as you stay safe, we can still have another baby. It is
my incompetence that lead the little angel doesn’t make it through..."novelbin
Every word he said was revealing a strong sense of self-blame.
While comforting Amber, Jack's tears also quietly burst from his eyes.
He worked overtime yesterday in order to spend a whole day with Amber and their baby today.
But he never thought that overtime work caused him and Amber lost their children.
If he hadn't worked overtime at that time, but he was at home, maybe... the scene wouldn’t happen at
all.
No, even if the assassination happened last night.
He could protect Amber better if he was there.
And he would forcibly prevent Amber from seeing Katherine Parry and Jenny Kool.
But all of this was just a hypothesis, now the grief was the fact.
In the ward, Amber's cry reverberated in the room all the time.
Over time, the crying gradually weakened.
She just had the miscarriage, coupled with great sadness, so her body couldn’t insist for too long.
Gradually, Amber relied on Jack's shoulder and fell asleep.
More exactly, after exhaustion of strength, she was almost fainting away.
The mouth clenching on Jack's shoulder also loosened.
Jack did not move but his hands were still gently rubbing on Amber's back, as if he was calming the kid
to sleep.
His eyes were still red and tears still couldn't stop dropping down.
He felt he used up his entire life tears last night, but Amber's reaction just now caused his dry eyes
burst into tears again.
Boom!
A flash of lightning tore the gloomy sky apart.
The thunder was rolling.
The wind was howling.
With this thunder and lightning, a heavy rain came crashing down on this city.
Autumn raining gradually brought coldness, the paddy became yellow from green meant one year had
passed.
Sudden violent storms took away the heat in autumn and the coldness of winter gradually ushered in.
The dark clouds that had been lingering all morning poured down from sky with heavy rain. Now, the
sky turned to inky black.
The world became hazy.
Just like Jack's inner grief at this time.
That rain was like his tears.
That thunder was like his pain.
The gust of wind was like the feeling heart-piercing and heartbroken.
Jack slowly put Amber back in the hospital bed, and he sat back in the wheelchair.
He didn't pay much attention to other things just now, he just wanted to suppress Amber so that she
would not struggle to cause more injury.
Jack gently tidied Amber's hair, put the hair that were wetted by tears behind her ears.
Jack lowered his head and lightly kissed Amber's forehead, then pushed the wheelchair and went out
of the ward, calling the nurse to put the transfusion back on for her.
After everything was done, the ward was in quiet again.
Jack was sitting in a wheelchair, watching Amber and weeping silently.
Amber was lying in the hospital bed with a deep frown. The pain still kept on her her pale and bloodless
face, even if she was asleep.
For a woman, a miscarriage was equivalent to a severe trauma.
Jack couldn't help Amber share the physical pain.
He once promised Amber, “You spend your entire life as a bet, and I will never let you lose.”
He also swore to let her become the happiest woman.
But now, he couldn't protect Amber and let her to be hurt again and again, even now the child...
Pain, guilt, self-blame...
Boom!
Jack looked at the black sky outside. In the heavy rain, he could vaguely see the lightning that was
about to disappear after the thunder.
He wanted to cry, but he didn't want to wake Amber up.
His sweetheart needed more rest.
The thunderstorm and the violent wind couldn’t awake Amber.
But his crying would.
Jack pushed his wheelchair to the window, facing the violent storm. Tears streaming down his face, but
he made sure the sound of thunder and the violent storm would cover his crying. He cried so hard till
his throat was hoarse.