Female Novel
Chapter 114
Chapter 114
A Month later
Alessia’s POV
He’s gone.
I didn’t spend enough time with him. Not as much as I had wanted to.
There are so many things that we never got the chance to do or talk about. novelbin
Should I have stayed with him for longer hours or maybe even moved in with him so that I could have taken better care
of him? Would he still be around if I did all that?
I take in a shaky breath, my head buried into my pillow, staining the linen with my tears. Tears that don’t stop rolling
down my cheeks in fat waves.
Dear G o d, it hurts. It hurts so f ck i n g much. It feels like there’s an anvil placed on my heart, crushing it and making
each breath that comes out of me more painful than the next. Soon, I’m gasping for air and choking on a s .
How many more people am I going to have to lose before I can obtain happiness? First my mother. Then Jake and now
my father
who I barely got the chance to know. Who is going to be next on the list?
A soft knock on the door pulls me out of my self-pitying party. “Alessia,” Caden calls out. “Let me in. I don’t want you to
be alone at a
time like this.” I know it’s s h i t t y but I locked Caden out of his room and turned it into my cry room. I justwant to be alone. I know Caden’s intentions are good but I don’t want any comforting right now. All I want is to be alone, cry myself to sleep, wake up, and continue the whole process again.And Caden won’t allow me to go down that route if I let him in.He will want to comfort me and make me feel better, but that isn’t what I need or want. “Alessia, please open the door.” Another soft knock. “You don’t have to do this alone.”
His words weaken my resolve and almost have me lifting from the bed to let him in. I quicklycover my head with a pillow to drown out his pled. I don’t know how long Caden stayed out there, begging for me to accept his comfort. Twentyminutes into his begging, I fall into a dreamless sleep, exhausted from all the crying andemotional baggage. When I wake up, it is to the sound of footsteps and shuffling of things. With a groan, I peel open a heavy eye and find Caden smiling at me with guilt in his eyes. “I’m sorry I woke you up. I just wanted to leave the plate on your bedside for when you wakeup.” He nods at a covered plate on the bedside table. “You missed dinner and I didn’t feelcomfortable knowing that you would be going to bed on an empty stomach,” he explains. For the first time since I’ve known him, Caden seems unsure of himself. He keeps looking at mewith concern and it’s very obvious that there are things he wants to say but he says n The room falls into silence.
“Thank you,” I finally say in a very raspy voice. With a grimace, I cough to clear my throat. Athought crosses my mind. “How did you get in?” I’m a hundred percent sure that the door waslocked before I fell asleep. His guilty smile deepens. “I got the key to the room and let myselfin.” He rushes out, “I was worried about you and that’s why I did it.” I keep mute, watching himbeat himself up for taking the keys and using them to bring me food. He’s acting like he justcreated a grave offense and I decide to bring the poor man out of his misery. “Thank you.” I nodat the plate beside me but that isn’t the only thing that I’m grateful for. It’s everything. He smiles.So bright, that it felt like the blinding light seeped into my chest to shine on my broken heart.
“I’ll be going now.” With one final smile my way, he turns around on his heels and startswalking towards the door. “Wait,” I rush out just as his fingers close over the door k n o b.
He stops and turns. “Yes? Do you need anything else?” Of course, that’s what he will ask. He’s so good to me and all I’ve been doing is pushing himaway from me. “Don’t go.” My voice comes out tiny and low. Clearing my throat, “Stay with me,”I rephrase. His hand falls from the doorknob and then he’s headed for my bed again. He doesn’t stop whenhe gets to the edge of the bed. Instead, he climbs in and pulls me into his embrace, wrappingme up in a warm cocoon. “How are you doing?” He asks, his lips pressed on my head. It’s a simple question but that’s all it takes to get the waterworks going again. I bury my faceinto his chest and hold him tightly, scared that he might just slip away if I don’t. Just likeeveryone else. Jude. That b a s t a r d. He’s the reason why I’m sure a mess right now. He had better pray that I never get my hands onhim because I’m going to make sure he suffers a greater pain than the one I’m currentlyexperiencing. He is going to beg for mercy but he will find none. He will beg for death instead but even thatwon’t be granted to him. My fingers clench into fists as my resolve strengthens. I’m going to make him pay foreverything. But today, I’m going to let myself enjoy Caden’s embrace. With a sigh, I draw closer to him,basically about to slide into his lap just so I can get closer. Caden picks me up and plops me on his lap. “I’ve got you,” he whispers in my ear while runninghis fingers through my hair. SEND GIFT