Tangled Love

CHAPTER 56

My life is a complete mess. I don't have control over anything. Everything good slips away from myfingertips before I have a chance to keep hold of it forever. After spending years living in fear andunable to love or trust, I want it to end so I can be happy.

I don't stop walk until my chest and legs burn from the pain and I glance around, finding myself in thecemetery. I breathe in deeply, letting oxygen into my lungs and make my way along the route I havememorised.

I stop when I get to his grave and fall onto my knees, wiping the tears away. I don't want him to knowI've been crying. I silently push away the branches and leaves, feeling guilty for abandoning him, OnceI'm done, my fingers stroke over the carving - loving father. I let out a small sob, unable to control thepain anymore. It's taking over my chest, becoming unbearable.

If he was here, he'd tell me what to do. He always had a reasonable solution to everything. When hewas alive, my life was full of love and happiness. It's crazy how one accident has the ability to changeyour entire life, rip away your happiness in seconds.

I sniffle, wiping away the tears on my cheeks. The wind whips around me harshly but I'm numb to thecold, numb to everything. Loneliness is a feeling I've

grown accustomed to but right now, it's hitting me harder than ever before.

"I just want you back Dad." I whisper, pulling my knees into my chest.

It's been hours.

Darkness surrounds me and everything is eerily quiet. I lay weak next to my fathers grave and feelcomforted, almost as if his presence is around me. I feel my phone vibrate again and I pull it out of my

back pockets, squinting at the brightness of the screen. Jake has messaged and rang me multipletimes.

I quickly scan over his text, each one becoming more frantic.

Emily, please tell me where you are.

I turn my phone off.

I don't want to talk to anyone. Right now all I want is to be left alone.

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Jake's POV-

I tug hard at my hair, staring down at my phone as I wait for her reply. I check everywhere I can think ofbut she's nowhere to be found. My fists clench as I remember how Tobias made her feel. Overtime myfeelings for her are becoming indescribable and I don't know what to tell her.

The truth is I'm scared.

I don't have the best experience when it comes to girlfriends.

I remember Violet, the pain she and Tobias bought my way. I vowed to myself I'd never get close to agirl again, never let her into my heart but slowly Emily is breaking that vow. The pain in her eyesflashes through my mind at Tobias' words and I yell out in frustration at the sky.

It's been hours.

My phone rings and I quickly pull it out of my jacket, frowning at the name on the screen.

"Hello?" I answer.

"She's at the cemetery."

Amil's smooth voice answers me.

How does he know that?

"Are you following her?" I ask him, a deep frown on my face. He shouldn't have done that withoutasking me first.

"Of course I am Jake. Do you think I wouldn't follow her after you bought her to me?"

"You should have asked me!" I respond back harshly. Amil pauses on the other end before breathing inharshly.

"I am making sure she doesn't go running to the police! You should be thanking me."

His voice became more threatening and I remember my place within the gang. Amil is leader whichmeans I have to respect him, no matter what. If I dislike something Amil does, I have to keep my mouthshut. Those are the rules.

I take a deep breath, thinking about my next words carefully.

"She doesn't trust the police." " I say quietly, making my way in the direction of the cemetery.

"You know I'm more careful than that. I can't simply take your word for it. She will be followed until I feelnecessary." Amil says firmly before hanging up on me.

I sigh and put my phone back into my pocket. I want to help Emily and get Trevor myself however Iknow Amil would never allow it. The gang made a vow to never get into any trouble unless it's one ofAmil's orders. It's his way of keeping us all in line and avoided unnecessary trouble with rival gangmembers.novelbin

I think back to our conversation regarding Emily and her safety. Amil remained silent the entire timebefore slowly nodding, letting me know he'll help. I didn't need his help, I needed his approval. I wantedto kill Trevor for what he'd done to Emily but I also have a duty to the gang and I can't give that up for agirl.

Even if that girl is Emily.

So why is my heart protesting?