Female Novel
Chapter 9: - 4/2 -
I'm at the lake again.
Why do I keep coming back here?
I'm standing here in the same clothes as the first time.
But something's not right, something seems different.
Dreary. Lifeless. Charmless.
There's fog everywhere, thick and heavy.
The moon is gone, there is no sun either, but somehow, the vast forest has a dim light, enough to allow
me to see clearly around me.
I am alone.
That's good, though.
Isn't it?
I don't know if I'm worth it now to stand by the voice that calls to me.
I'm dirty.
I'm broken.
I'm lonely.
I move forward. My feet are moving and I feel the water covering them as I go deeper into the lake.
It's cold. It makes me shiver, but I still go on.
My body hurts. Why?
I'm tired. Extremely tired. It's hard to stay awake, my eyelids are heavy and my eyes burn. I think I'm
crying, but I can't be sure.
What should I do?
I'm all alone.
I'm broken.
«You're dirty».
Yes, I know.
The water is now up to my waist and it's wetting my shirt.
My breathing is labored, it's irregular. Or was it already like that?
My mind is fuzzy, many memories, many voices, many faces...
There's something that slips away every time I'm close to remembering.novelbin
What's that?
Who is it?
I don't know. The voice hasn't called me back.
I keep going.
My eyes are itchy. Am I crying? I don't want to lift my fingers to find out.
I might break. I'm fragile, right?
Now the water is up to my neck, I have to stand on the tip of my toes to keep my head afloat.
Should I keep going?
I take one last look around and there's nothing to make me want to stop.
The forest is no longer alive, its trees are dead, the lake is cold and dark... There's no light.
I can't see the tree of lights... Why not?
«You're alone.
You're dirty.
You're broken».
Yes, I know.
I keep going.