Female Novel
Chapter 115
25. A Coaward’s Words YILEYNA
His apology had shaken me, but it wasn‘t the words he spoke that had gotten to me, it was the emotionin it, the pain in his eyes and the obvious regret. It gave me some clarity. Even when Ailema hadcomforted me, I realised Theon was also suffering, far more than he showed. I had wanted to go to him,but my own emotions had overwhelmed me, the pain I felt... how could I still care for him despite what hehad done? Even if he regretted it and was misguided, it confused me. There was pain and love withinme, paired with the intense desire to pounce upon him.
I needed to control myself. This hunger for his physical touch was beginning to scare me, and although Iwondered if another man‘s touch would help, I couldn‘t do it.
He consumed my heart and mind.
The following day, the mention of that apology was not brought up again, but I felt a bit lighter. I just wishI had Mom or Dad‘s view on things, what would they advise me? Deep down I knew the answer to that,my parents had raised me well but I just wish they were here.
We had arrived at Eastcourt, and despite it being a big city, it was not as welcoming or busy asWesterfell. We split from the crew and Theon, and I made our way towards Lochfox.
We had cloaks on and had our hoods up. Thanks to Flynn‘s distraction, we were able to sneak away withthe help of heavy fog.
We had travelled by foot, and we were away from the city, I glanced over at Theon frowning. I hadsuggested shifting twice, but he had refused. “I don‘t think a bright white wolf with a fluffy tail is going toblend in.” He remarked after the third time I suggested it.
“Oh really? Or are you just afraid that I‘ll be faster?” I challenged. “The fog will hide us.”
“We travel by foot.”
I frowned and came to a stop.
“We are wasting time, Theon.”
“Then shall we take horses?” He shot back, his irritation rising.
I was about to argue when I frowned, turning and looking up at him sharply. “Is it because you are unableto shift?” I asked, stopping in my tracks. His heart skipped a beat, it was slight and his face remainedalmost the same, but I had caught it.
“I just don‘t want to–“.
I cut him off, placing a finger to his lips as my gaze dipped to his chest.
“Theon... how are you not healing?” I asked, frowning as I grabbed his shirt, ready to push it up, only forhim to stop me.
His grip on my wrist was tight yet not painful.
“I‘m fine, it‘s just a small injury. We carry on, on foot.” He growled.
“I want to see it. How did it happen?”
Our eyes met and I could see he was mulling it over. “As I said, let it go, we are wasting time.” “No. Weare wasting time because you are behaving stubbornly. Stop being so childish, Theon!” I snapped, myfrustration growing.
His eyes flashed gold as he glared at me. “Fine. It happened when you rejected me.”
My eyes flew open in shock as I stared at him in sheer surprise. I felt as if someone had just slapped meacross the face.
The memory of that moment returned to me, finding out the truth about my parents and then losing it. Ihad dug my nails into him and ripped through his chest, with the aim to kill... So all this time, he hadn‘thealed?
My stomach lurched as I pulled free from his hold, lifting his shirt up to reveal the bandages that werewrapped around his entire torso. The faint pink that was already staining the bandages told me he wasn‘thealing.
My heart thumped as I looked him over. “I’m fine, it‘s healing, just a bit fucking slower.” He tried to moveaway, but I didn‘t let go.
“Why... Why didn‘t you heal already?” I muttered, worry and fear filling me. He pulled away forcefully,yanking his top down. “Theon, tell me.”
Our eyes met and he clenched his jaw, he knew we were wasting time. “A siren‘s touch in rage is.”“Death.” I whispered, my heart thudding as I stared at the man before me.
Death.
He was dying slowly. Now the dullness in his eyes made sense. Gawking up at him beyond those sexylooks, I realised he looked pretty pale too... “I deserved it, now shall we carry on walking?” He asked mepointedly. 1 I frowned, wanting to see the wounds, but I didn‘t push it. “How about I shift, and you canride on my back?” I suggested. 2 He stared at me as if I had just grown another head. “Not happening.” 2“What‘s wrong with that?” I huffed, falling into step by his side. The guilt I felt was still eating up at me.“Put your ego aside.”
“No.”
“Theon. Please. We‘ll be faster, we need to head to Naran...” I trailed off, realising what was in Naran...Something that could heal all illnesses and injuries. “What is it?” He asked, noticing the change in mybeating heart. I shook my head, trying to hide the ray of hope that ignited within me. “Nothing. Nothing atall. Let‘s hurry.”
We finally arrived at Lochfox, but I could tell something wasn‘t right. Theon was frowning deeply as helooked around at the rundown buildings. Some looked charred by fir,e and others were extremely ill–kept. The further into the small village we went, the worse it got. But there were still no signs of his pack,or much life, save the few lone wolves or humans.
“Have you ever been here before?” I asked quietly. “A few times, we once had some of our people here.There was also another Pack that resided here. Seems they left...”
“Then where do you think they have gone?” I asked.
“I don’t know, but I intend to find out.” His reply was cold, and I could sense the
anger in it. We carried on in silence, the roads becoming rockier. It was obvious no one had been here ina while. “I don‘t think anyone has lived here recently.” I murmured, my foot slipping on some rubble.
Theon‘s arm shot out and he grabbed my wrist, steadying me.
“Careful.” .
My heart skipped a beat when he pulled me close, his arm snaking around my waist as our eyes met. Mycore clenched as I felt his entire body against mine. I slowly tugged away, trying not to focus on howgood his body felt, and looked away as we continued, but his hand didn‘t leave my waist. Theon led theway further in, he clearly had a goal in mind. But with each passing minute, my worry for his sister wasgrowing. I just hoped she was ok, wherever she was.
It was a short while later when we finally saw a small home standing alone, it wasn‘t in much bettercondition than the rest of the town, but the puffs of smoke from the window and the glow of a fire frominside beckoned us.
Theon knocked on the door, and it wasn‘t long before it was pulled open by a middle–aged man. Hissmile vanished upon seeing Theon, who pushed his way inside. “May I come in?” I asked, smilingwarmly. The man looked me over, his gaze lingering on my eyes before he nodded, but I didn‘t miss thefear in him.
“Welcome to my humble abode, A–Alpha Theon.” Theon frowned as he turned to the man, I shut thedoor behind me.
“No need for formalities, I came here to find my sister, only to find that there‘s no sign of any of the packin Lochfox, yet you are still here.”
“Why would you come to find your sister? Did your father not tell you where she is?” He asked keenly,almost curiously. I frowned, as Theon looked at him sharply. “He told me she‘s in Lochfox.”
“Then does he know you have come here?” The man asked, wiping the bead of sweat from hisforehead.
I watched him sharply, seeing the slight tremble in his hand as he looked at Theon.
Why was he so afraid?
“What has that got to do with anything, Cadoran?” Theon asked sharply.
“We won‘t hurt you.” I promised, giving him a gentle smile. “We are only here for answers.”
The man gave me a small grimace, that I was certain was meant to be a smile. The suspicion didn‘tvanish from his eyes, although he let out a deep breath. novelbin
“W–well I mean no wrong, after all, you are my alpha.” Cadoran bowed to Theon, making me frown. “ButI didn‘t think Alpha Theoden would send you on a wild
goose chase when he knows she isn‘t here.”
Theon‘s heart was beating as he stared at the man, about to walk over to him when I stepped in front ofhim, placing a hand on Theon’s chest, shaking my head slightly. Our eyes me and he frowned, despiteobeying me and staying in his spot. I didn‘t move away, turning to Cadoran once more. “Will you tell useverything that happened here?” “Wh–who are you, my lady?” He asked, taking out a handkerchief. Fearfilled the room as the terrified man looked at me and wiped his forehead. There was nothing to hide. “Iam Yileyna De‘Lacor, daughter of this kingdom and the heart of Kaeladia. We have come for answers,Cadoran, to fix the wrongs of the kings before us and we need to know anything you can tell us. It isobvious you are scared, but why? What happened?” “The heart... then you should–should not be here...”He mumbled, looking at Theon with fear.
“It‘s ok. Theon can be trusted.” I said, looking up at the man I loved and thought I hated. Somehow thathatred was fading...
“I wouldn‘t trust him, my queen.” He whispered.
The bravest attempt he had made.
“I assure you I‘m questioning my father‘s actions. So, if you can tell me what has happened here for thelast two years, I would appreciate it.” Cadoran sighed before he motioned to the worn–out sofa in front ofthe hearth.
‘Then I suggest you sit down; it is a long story.” He said quietly, his eyes shadowed. I looked up atTheon, only to realise I still had my hand on his chest and was right up against him. My heart skipped abeat and I slowly moved away. I thought I saw a small smirk on his lips as we took a seat.
“Would you like tea?” “No, thank you.” I declined politely, giving him a smile. He took a deep breath,putting distance between himself and Theon as he sat on a stool near the hearth, placing his hands onhis knees and taking another shuddering breath.
“I have always been a lone wolf living on the edge of the territory, not wanting trouble, you know thatAlpha Theon. After all, the pack‘s ways were not for me...” He cast a furtive look at Theon, who remainedsilent. “After you left... your father‘s ways became more obvious, with you gone there was no front to putup. He pulled back the search parties for that wretched siren who killed our Luna. He said our focus wason getting stronger... Even though we were growing, we weren‘t enough. He wanted an army, one thatwould be far more powerful than any other, and so... he started selling them...”
His eyes became haunted, and sadness filled them, making the man look older than he probably was.
“Them?” Theon asked sharply.
“Our women.” 1
I stared at him stunned, as silence fell in the room, but Theon‘s heart was thundering louder than ever. Itook his hand in mine, trying to calm the raging aura that now erupted around him.
“Explain.” His hoarse command came, his chest was heaving, fighting his emotions.
“The Beta argued but he killed him, telling us anyone who disobeyed him would end up the same. Foreach young woman, depending on her beauty and her status, not to mention if she was a virgin... Hesold them to other Alphas, or anyone willing to trade for men.”
“No... Dad couldn‘t... What about Thea?” Theon asked, his voice cracking as he stared at the manintensely. 1
Cadoran looked at him with sympathy, now clearly realising Theon knew nothing. “She was an Alpha‘sdaughter. At first he didn‘t even consider selling her,
knowing what she meant to you, but when The Alpha of the Dark Moon Pack came offering him twothousand men for her, the Alpha agreed... She screamed and shouted, saying she wouldn‘t forgive him;the entire pack heard it... but he simply said she should be grateful that an Alpha was taking her and sheshould be proud to do this for her kingdom.” Cadoran‘s eyes filled with sadness before he looked up atTheon. I too turned to look at Theon, who was trying to hide his pain, his grip on my hand tight as hisentire body shook with the revelation. ? “Did no one else try to stop him?” Theon asked quietly, his voiceshaking with anger. “Those who did were killed. Before he left, he killed anyone he didn‘t trust, that‘swhen I ran... like the coward I am. With the help of a serum from a witch, I staged my death, the serumstopped my heart beating for a few minutes. I wasn‘t a concern for them and they didn‘t do a thoroughcheck on the small folk. When they destroyed the town, I lay there waiting for them all to leave... and nowhere I am, in my home that they forgot to destroy as it‘s so far out. Alone.” Theon pulled his hand free ashe stood up, turning his back on me, running his fingers through his hair.
“When was she sold?” He asked.
“Six months back, Alpha.” “Fuck!” Theon growled, punching the wall.
Cadoran flinched and I stood up, my heart breaking for all those women who were sold.
We had to find them all... but how?
“Theon...”
“I won‘t forgive him. How could he do that to her... to any of them... This isn‘t right.” “I know it‘s not.” Iwhispered softly, placing my hand on his back. “I can‘t believe I listened to him like a fucking fool.” Hewhispered, his voice barely audible. 2
“Theon, you didn‘t know. Don‘t blame yourself, everything that‘s happened has been staged by Theoden.We need to defeat him. I know he‘s your father, but you need to take over and become the Alpha of yourpack and” “My pack? He killed my pack! Those men are mere soldiers whom he has purchased! I‘mgoing to fucking destroy him.” “Theon!” I shouted, placing my hand on his chest as he tried to push pasthim.”
Calm down! We will do this together.” Theon ran a hand through his hair, looking back at Cadoran, whowas watching us curiously.
“What else has my father done? Tell me the truth. Everything you know, I want you to tell me now!”Theon commanded.
Cadoran lowered his head, before he looked up at Theon.
“If I speak, and I will, what guarantee will you give that my safety will remain?”
“I give you my word, nothing will happen to you.” I spoke before Theon could, knowing in his anger hemay not be so pleasant.
Cadoran looked towards the window, fear once again settling into him.
“Alpha Theoden has dark allies, my queen, and I fear for us all, but I am a coward and I don‘t wish todie.”
“You fucking won‘t, now spit it out.” Theon growled.
“Theon please, give him time.” I whispered. I could feel the bandages under my fingertips, smell the faintsmell of blood, and I knew we didn‘t have much time. “Please tell us, the more we know the better.”
“Then we go back, back to the time I first realised he was up to no good... a time when he killedsomeone very dear to you, Alpha Theon. Perhaps you have forgotten her... but she became a distractionto you, and although she was the daughter of his good friend, he didn‘t care. He had her killed in such ahorrible way by our own men. I was there... but my job was to cry for help.”
I could feel Theon‘s heart pounding violently, but my curiosity heightened.
What girl?
“Her name.” Theon‘s asked dangerously.
But something told me he already knew the name.
“None other than your first love, Alpha Theon. Iyara. Your father had her killed when she became adistraction for you.” a)
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