Lightning Is the Only Way

Chapter 1146

"There is no one that elicits these kinds of feelings from me," Mortis answered. "| see so many different Cultivators, but they alllook the same to me. They are either strangers, friends, enemies, or whatever. There is no difference."

"So, do humans need some kind of connection with a stranger for love to exist in the future?" Azure asked. She was genuinelycurious about all of this.

Mortis' brows furrowed. "No, not really."

"Then why does that have to exist for you to try?" Azure asked.

For the first time, Mortis didn't answer immediately.

Why didn't he just get to know more people?

Was it really necessary that his spark had to exist for a relationship to blossom?

Obviously not.

There were plenty of mortals and Cultivators that got together with people after just being friends for years on end.There had been no romantic attraction between them in the beginning, but they had eventually ended together.For some reason, a kind of pressure appeared in Mortis’ insides.

Is it because of my past?’ he thought. 'I've felt how Gravis have felt for so long. I've felt these intense bursts of warmth and loveinside myself so many times."

Mortis looked into the distance. ‘Is it because | fear disappointment? Do | fear that my eventual love won't be as vibrant as thelove Gravis feels for Stella?’

Amoment of silence passed.

‘And then, this entire thing with Joyce happened, which confirmed my fear. | was attracted to Joyce, but | never felt anythingremotely as intense as what Gravis felt for Stella back then."

‘And then, Joyce died, and | felt like my ability to love died with her.’Mortis glanced over at Azure, who only looked into the distance with a thoughtful expression.

‘| think | fear disappointment,’ Mortis thought. ‘It might be possible that I'm afraid of losing my hope. | can dream about how greatlove is and how it makes me feel, but I'm afraid that my imagination is off."

Another moment of silence.

‘If even love turns out to be a disappointment, what else is there left but greyness in my life?"If love doesn't live up to my expectations, what reason do | even have left to live?’

“Azure, why do you cultivate?" Mortis asked.

Azure was surprised by the question. How did Mortis even come up with that question?"Why do | cultivate?" Azure asked.

Mortis nodded.

Azure remained silent.

"| don't know," she said after several seconds. "Honestly, | haven't really thought about it. Living just feels natural to me, and it'slike something | just have to do."

"Is there something in your life that you don't want to lose, no matter what?" Mortis asked.Azure remained silent for a bit longer as her expression became uncomfortable."Not really," Azure answered with an unsure voice.

"Then, why do you keep fighting? Why do you keep comprehending Laws? Why do you go through the fear and pain oftempering yourself?" Mortis asked absentmindedly.

“Every Cultivator would rather do anything else. No Cultivator goes out and tempers themselves just for fun. We all do it out ofnecessity since we want to become more powerful. And why do we want to become more powerful? Because we don't want todie."novelbin

“And why don't we want to die? Because we have something in our life that we don't want to lose. We don't want to feel the painof a loved one dying. We want to spend more time with our loved ones. We want to see what tomorrow brings."

"Yet, when you have nothing you care about, what is even the point of surviving?" Mortis asked, looking at Azure. "From whatyou've said, you sound like you don't have anything you want to live for. So, why live?"

Azure remained silent.Azure remained silent for several minutes.During that time, Mortis regretted his question.

Mortis had only asked some things he was curious about, but he realized that his words might have had an unintended effect onAzure.

These thoughts were normal to Mortis. He was thinking these thoughts every single day.Yet, in comparison, Azure had never even asked herself that question.

"You don't have to answer, and you also don't need to question yourself regarding this topic," Mortis added. "You obviously havesomething to live for. Otherwise, you wouldn't have had the willpower to get through so much fighting and death."

"No, you were right," Azure said, her expression showing an internal struggle. "What do | actually live for? Why do | live?"

"You're a beast, Azure,” Mortis added. "Heaven made you to become powerful. You're not a human, and you don't need to havethe feelings we humans have. For you, power might have a vastly stronger appeal than for us. Becoming more powerful mightfeel way more fulfilling than for us humans."

"Don't try to invalidate your reasons for living by comparing them to humans. You're not a human, and you already accepted that,right? Why search for something unimportant to you?" Mortis added.

By now, Mortis had regretted asking his earlier question. Azure seemed to genuinely struggle right now.

"No, that's not the case," Azure said as she looked at Mortis with confusion and nervousness. "| know what you're trying to doright now, but your worry is misplaced."

Mortis raised an eyebrow.“lam simply overwhelmed by something | have never felt before," Azure said. "That's why it was so difficult for me to answer.""What do you feel?" Mortis asked.

"It's a kind of emptiness," Azure said. "It's like a black hole that sucks out all the drive in my being, and it feels like it's consumingmy insides."

Mortis' expression became uncomfortable, and he felt guilty beyond compare.This was a feeling he was very familiar with."Hey, listen-"

"Give me a second," Azure interrupted Mortis. "Keep in mind that I'm not some mortal. I'm a Star God, and I've gone throughworse. You don't need to fix me or anything. | can deal with this stuff well on my own."

Mortis looked at Azure skeptically. After all, he knew how overwhelming this feeling was.

Azure noticed Mortis' expression, but she didn't try to convince Mortis immediately. Instead, she wanted to tell him what she wasthinking about.

"| never felt this feeling before, right?" Azure asked. "I've never had an issue with life, and | felt satisfied with simply becomingmore powerful. However, as soon as you brought my attention to the purpose of life, | suddenly felt this feeling | never feltbefore."

"I'm certain that | wouldn't have felt anything like this in the past. | haven't felt anything even remotely like this, not even a weakerversion. It's completely new."

"We beasts get a Spirit when we become Star Gods, right?" Azure asked. "So, when we get a Spirit, does it also mean that ouremotional concepts become more human-like?"

Mortis also fell into thought when Azure said that.Could she be right?

Right now, Mortis couldn't be sure.

But then, Azure added something.

“What about beasts that managed to become Heaven's Magnates?" Azure asked. "You said you know a Heaven's Magnatethat's a beast."

"What about it?" Mortis asked.

"Well, to become a Heaven's Magnate, you need to know all the four main Laws, and one main Law always stumped me. |always tried to think of a way to comprehend it, but | never came up with one. You know why? Because it seemed simplyimpossible for beasts."

"I'm talking about the Law of Empathy," Azure said.

Mortis' eyes widened.

Right!

How would a beast even go about comprehending the Law of Empathy?

Mortis knew what it took to comprehend the Law of Empathy since he knew it, and he was sure that a beast couldn't feel theamount of empathy required to comprehend that Law.

It would be impossible for a beast.

So, how had the Black Magnate become a Heaven's Magnate if it's impossible for a beast to feel like a human?"So, you think that you can now feel love like humans?" Mortis asked in surprise.

"| don't know," Azure said. "I think so, but | can't be sure without testing.”

Then, she looked at Mortis.

“Want to try?" she asked.

Mortis froze.

That...

Mortis only looked at Azure. "Could you be a bit more specific?" Mortis asked.

"Try to see if we could love each other," Azure added. "If it doesn't work, we can just stop. After all, even if | can't feel it, | know abit about how it works, and | know that it would hurt you if | couldn't reciprocate. So, we can just try, right? If it works, we can bothexperience love, and if it doesn't, we can just break up."

Mortis scratched the back of his head awkwardly."| don't know," he said.

"Why are you hesitating?" Azure asked, genuinely confused. "| see no downside, only upsides. We will come out with moreknowledge, no matter how it goes."

Then, Azure remembered something.

"Oh, is it because I'm not attractive to you?" Azure asked, genuinely confused.

Mortis looked at Azure.

Attractive?

Azure had beautiful blue hair, and her eyes were clear like the ocean."No, that's not it," Mortis said.

"Then what? Is my mindset not to your liking?" Azure asked.Mindset?

Azure was very honest and careful. Even when she hadn't felt anything like love before, she had been mindful of the people whodid.

Additionally, Azure had an air ofsuperiority on her, but not the bkind. She simply-appeared ikeapewerf anid outstanding woman. Itwasn't mindless pride butconfidence. The content is onNovelDrama.Org! Read the latestchapter there!

Lastly, Azure was very direct and always voiced her thoughts.As for her beast body?Mortis got reminded of Yersi and Jake.

Jake wasn't attracted to a beastbody, but he had still been entrancedwith Yersi. Back then, Mortis had

seen no issue with liY, sis uebody w S a beast. No,she simply had two bodies. None ofthe two bodies were true or false.Additionally, almost all beasts lived intheir human form due to the greaterconnection with the Laws. Evenmore, humans had hands that coulduse weapons. The content is onNovelDrama.Org! Read the latestchapter there!

In a sense, the only things that differentiated a human from a beast were their abilities and origin.Everything else was the same."No, that's also not it," Mortis added.

"Then what?" Azure asked. "I don't getit. Is it that spark you talke qbout,earlier? Butyhensyab Sala at thesbalk isn't necessary. What's theharm in trying?" The content is onNovelDrama.Org! Read the latestchapter there!

Mortis' mind was overwhelmed at the moment.

He couldn't find a reason to reject Azure since all her words were logically sound.However, Mortis still felt hesitant.

‘Is that stubbornness?’ Mortis thought. 'l can't find a logical counterargument, but | still don't want to concede the argument.’‘If | can't find any arguments, doesn't that mean that I'm incorrect?"

Mortis looked at Azure.

"She's actually right. What's the harm in trying? It can't really get worse than it currently is."For some reason, Mortis became very nervous.

"| mean, if you're fine with it. We can see if it works," Mortis said.

Azure smiled with excitement. "Great!"

Ten seconds of awkward silence.

"So, how do we try?" Azure asked in confusion.

Mortis smiled awkwardly and sat down.

Then, he patted the place beside him.

“Let's just try sitting beside each other and talk."

Azure became interested and sat down beside Mortis.

"What do we talk about?" Azure asked after some seconds.

“Anything,” Mortis said.