Female Novel
Chapter 7
After feeling emotionally numb for several hours I decided to call my doctor and was scheduled for ameday. The most difficult thing would be me taking a pregnancy test yet once again to confirm it.
Hearing that the baby was the size of a blueberry was enough reason for me to ignore the doctor allthroultrasound. When I was younger I had dreamed of this moment and wished it would be a happyone butcomplete opposite.
I did not know how to ask for a referral to an abortion clinic but I managed to do it. If I removed thebabget too attached to the idea of something living inside of my belly.
Yes, that was what I was going to do. I was going to live my life and move on as if nothing happenedandremoved the baby everything would go back to normal, there was no reason for me to be stressedand tto work as usual.
But I didn’t want an abortion. I wanted to raise my child and have something completely of my ownwhicand treasure.
Despite having done it before the idea of stripping while having something inside of me made me sick,adefinitely not something I wanted. “Enzo,” I called out before he closed his office door. He turnedaroundeyebrows and a big smile on his face, probably happy that I had approached him for the firsttime in the had worked here and that it was not the usual other way around. “Do you think you canschedule me betonight?”
Enzo lead me into his office with his arms and closed the door. Just as he did yesterday, he held hishandforehead, trying to find something. “Are you sick again?”
“No, I mean yes, maybe a little but I’m still good to work…just not dance.” I quickly made up. It wasn’texalso far from the truth. Enzo took a map and quickly scrolled through it before closing it again andthrew“You know what, I’ll talk to my brother, you go ahead.” He said, and I couldn’t help but feel guilty.
Gio wperson to talk to and took everything extremely seriously which is why I went to Enzo in the firstplace, bwilling to go as far as asking his brother for me.
“Are you sure? Because if I can’t then that’s okay.” I asked trying to play nice, hoping he would ignoremhe luckily did. “Yes, go ahead it’s fine.”
I didn’t have to hear it for the third time and had already turned around to leave but in the process, Ibumbody as hard as stone and knew exactly who it belonged to. “Is this some kind of habit of yours?” Iheardvoice as he pushed me back.
“I-I’m so sorry.” I stuttered and held my head down as usual. “Now that you’re here anyway, Squirrel isgbar tonight, she’s still sick,” Enzo told Christian. To him, it was probably a relief that he didn’t have toaskbut to me, it felt terrible. “Look at me.” He asked in the same demanding tone he always had,making me
He looked at me in the eye and walked a circle around me as I tried to keep my calm . “You still looklike concluded. Yes, I do, and it’s because I’m carrying your baby.
“So it’s okay?” Enzo double-checked. At times it surprised me how he respected Christian despite himbehim, but Lucio had always made it clear that if he was not around Christian was in charge, then Gioand a“You can let the girls dance around a campfire for all I care, do what you gotta do.” He shruggednonchapushed a file into Enzo’s hand. Was that what he was going to say when I would tell him I waspregnant?baby can dance around a campfire.
“I only came to give you this.” He said and gently placed his hand on my back. I froze up for a secondanconfused at what he was doing. “I’ll take you to the bar, come on.” He said.
I didn’t refuse or pushed him away as he walked me through the hallway which led to the club. Many ofdirty looks and couldn’t stop staring at his hand on my back. What would they even do to me if theyfouhaving his baby?
The club was still closed, meaning all of the girls had turned to give me a dirty look. Usually, I wouldn’tmknew Luna and Faith would protect me, but today was their day off.
“Franco!” Christian called out and opened the door to the large kitchen. I had only been there once andhad just started working here. I remember it like yesterday when Lucio pulled me away and told me thatbe more comfortable bartending, but stripping paid better so at that time it was out of option for me.
The moment Christian walked in, all the staff stopped doing whatever they were doing and perfectlylineobeying dogs while Christian chuckled, probably thinking it was as uncomfortable as I thought.“Hey, whout here?” The guy who had appeared from behind a wall asked him before he looked me upand down.
“This is Serena, she will be helping out here temporarily, take good care of her, don’t make her washanygive her any difficult tasks, and be nice. If I hear one complaint you’re fired.” He said, and everyonereplibefore they went back to their jobs, except for Franco who stood in front of me.
Temporarily, I asked if I could work here for just this day because I was afraid of pushing it, but here hewme instead. The thing I liked the most would be that he was calling me by my name. Other than withLucsomething which did not happen very often.
“So we meet again.” Franco smiled and gave me a handshake. “Don’t worry, I’ll take good care of her.”
“You better.” Christian turned around and placed both hands on my shoulders to look at me. “You arenolistener, are you? I told you to stay at home.” He spoke in an irritated tone and let go of me beforeturnintaking his exit.
“So, let me show you what you can do.” Franco clasped his hands together and gave me instructions.Thhad to do for the night was cut up some lemons and some other fruits which was nothing special andexbut at least I was getting paid. I might not be getting the tips I was used to, but I would at least be
able tQuite some time had already passed and my arms were starting to get tired, but the last thing Icould dowasn’t even supposed to be back here so I had no right to complain.
“Squirrel, you’re dismissed!” Franco called out and in shock, I dropped the knife and turned around.Dismhad three more hours to go before my ending time.
“Boss’ orders.” He said when he saw the look on my face. All I could do was awkwardly nod my headandstuff while walking out of the back door. Leaving early did just not come to my advantageconsidering thscheduled.
“Serena?” A man standing next to a car asked me and I took a step back. Even though it was dark itwas recognize him, he was usually with the Lamberti brothers and their usual driver. “Yes?”
“Boss told me to make sure you get back home safe, let’s go.” He said and held the door open. Gettingaand not having to pay for an uber was something which you didn’t have to tell me twice so I got in.
But why?
Why is he taking such good care of me?
I looked down at my flat stomach and thought about how life could be. Did I misjudge him, if I told himhe take responsibility and help me raise our child?novelbin
No, of course, he wouldn’t.
He had already told me that Lucio had ordered him to look after me. He had already told me that hecareemployees well being and I was definitely not a special case. There was no way he was going toaccept mHe came from a rich family with mafia ties and someone like me would definitely not fit intothat picture that, I would not even feel safe bringing a child into that life. Whatever crazy idea I wasthinking, it wouldignore it because this was not a fairy tale.
What if I had the baby and Christian would suddenly order me to give him the baby the same way helikepeople around?
Would I even win a court case like that?
I felt slight dizziness in my head and immediately closed my eyes, hoping the feeling would go away.“Armiss?” The man behind the wheel asked and I nodded my head.
It were only a few hours but I felt like giving out. It wasn’t just the work but also the music and thelightsclub which was too much for me. If I were to keep this baby I had to find another job as soon aspossibleIf I’m going to have this baby, I will give it the life it deserves with or without a dad.
If I’m going to have this baby, I will do it on my own so no one can steal it away from me…