Female Novel
Chapter 37
The moment Nikolas left the room, I became scared. Who would have thought he was King Mathias’son? His hatred towards my father when he arrived, was understandable.
My heart broke, and I tried to hide it so I do not spoil his mood. It was unfair for a prince to grow up inthe wild and watch his mother go feral. I am yet to know how Queen Isabel lost her mind, but goingthrough all that would drive anyone off the edge.
I looked around the room and thought of Forest as an entirety and realised everything was his all along.He never took anything, and the fact that he had to fight for it made me feel like a thief.
It made me feel guilty. I wasn’t the one that took it, but I felt that way.
Nikolas must care about me to ease his rage on my people. I could just imagine what was happening inhis head when he arrived and saw my father: the man he believed buried a sword in his father’s heart,stole his kingdom and banished his mother.
My father was lucky to be alive.
I was fortunate to be alive.
As much as Nikolas told me I had nothing to worry about, I knew I had plenty to worry about.
Queen Isabelle was bound to hate me, and soon he would have to choose because I doubted thewoman would let it go.
She was alive when everything happened. She had her version of the truth based on experience; herpain and hatred would be more profound than Nikolas’s. I was afraid and didn’t know what to do.
Everything was against me. I wasn’t only a werewolf but the daughter of the man that ruined their lives.I couldn’t tell him what my father said about how his father died, he would think it was because I knew,
and he would not believe it. Only the goddess could vindicate my poor father.
I am sure if my father could glimpse into the future, he wouldn’t have tried to march the werewolves tothe palace to demand freedom, but if he hadn’t done that, King Mathias would have wiped us out.
There was no way King Fredrick wouldn’t have taken advantage of the slave trade deal. It was for thebest but at the expense of Nikolas and his poor mother.
I had held it together throughout my time with Nikolas since he returned from his mother’s room in themorning. But now that I was alone, I broke down.
I broke down because I was afraid, and I wasn’t willing to let go. I was fooling myself when I believed Icould walk away when the time came. I knew deep down I wouldn’t be able to do it.
Someone feared, hated and misjudged by my kind loved me wholly and wholeheartedly. No one wouldever love me as Nikolas does, and that thought alone made me dread a separation.
Someone knocked on the door, and I did not need to guess who it was. I wiped away my tears andasked Ania and Lisa to enter. They came with two trays of food and a frown. I didn’t bother to ask themwhy they were frowning because I wasn’t faring well either. It was best I minded my business so theydo not get into mine.
“Aliana, Alpha said we should eat with you and keep you company because he would spend the rest ofthe day with his mother. Hope you don’t mind?” Ania said, and I smiled at her, but Lisa continuedfrowning. She put the tray on the table and came to look at my face.
“Aliana, are you crying?” She said, and I tried to look away, but she caught it. She gasped immediately,and I wondered what was shocking.
“Alpha ended your relationship?” She asked, and I shook my head. She was the most pessimisticperson I had ever known. She frowned, wondering what was the reason for my sadness.
“So, what is the matter?” She asked and sat o n a chair at the table. I joined her and Ania at the table tolook at the food.
“She doesn’t want to share Alpha’s attention with his mother,” Ania teased, laughing. She easily gotover her anger.
“She is missing her man,” she continued, but Lisa wasn’t buying it.
“The woman is hateful, I would be worried too if I were Aliana,” Lisa said, and I looked at her becauseshe was closest to the reason. “Alpha has stopped us from attending to her, so all we are charged withnow is hanging with you and doing whatever you like. I can’t believe the woman would hate the peoplethat nursed her to health, halfbreed or not, werewolf or not; if Aliana did not step in and we were notdiligent, the woman would be dead by now. Gezel and Erica finally got the promotion they wanted. Iheard Gezel saying the woman plans to get rid of you and get her son a Lycan bride. For goddesssake, she just got her senses, and I think she would be trouble for everyone. I hate to say this, but Iregret everything we did for her,” Lisa said, and I gasped. Ania did not do the same; she agreed.
“What?” Lisa said, sounding a bit angry and looking at me.
“Ania was there; she saw how the woman behaved. She was disgusted by our scent alone. You shouldbe worried, Aliana. That woman is not a good person. Feral or not, I think we messed with the mercy ofthe goddess by nursing her to health,” she said, and I covered her mouth.
“The walls have ears, and Lycans have abilities. Watch what you say, please,” I said, and she mumbledsomething, so I immediately removed my hand from her lips.
“You have been warned, Aliana. That woman is no good,” She said, and I sighed.
After learning what I learned, Isabelle’s hatred was justifiable. I could not fault her for hatingwerewolves.
“It isn’t her fault, you know?” I said, and they both looked at me as if I had lost my mind.
“Are you crazy? That woman is planning on separating you from Alpha. And don’t lie about how youfeel because we have been there from the beginning. You two are so good together, Aliana; what thatwoman intends to do is a crime and a sin. Do not justify her intentions,” Ania said, sounding slightlyannoyed, and I nodded.
“Yes, you are right. I am in love with him. I want things that I should only dream of with him. In fact, Ideceive myself daily on the matter, but I have to be honest with myself,” I said, and tears beganstreaming down my cheeks.
As much as I wanted to hang on to Nikolas’s words, only time would tell. I do not see him cuttinghimself off from his mother, and if she fails to see the light, one of us has to go, and it definitely won’tbe her.
“I am f*uc*ked!” I said and covered my face, letting my tears fall.
I couldn’t cry like this with Nikolas around because he would say I do not trust him, but I could cry myheart out with Ania and Lisa; they would listen to me and help me unburden my heart.
“I am afraid,” I confessed and got up.
I had lost my appetite and did not want to eat anything. I went to the couch, and they followed me.
Nikolas must have permitted them to be free because they sat on the couch with me.
“I am sure Alpha will not let you down, Aliana. You need to see how he looks at you and behaves withyou. It is out of his character. He has made many exceptions, for your sake. Your people are safebecause he loves you. All he has done to make you happy cannot go to waste. It will not go to waste,Aliana. One thing I know of this man is that he has a mind of his own and cannot be manipulated. Thefew times I have seen him handle problems, I have known he can’t be easily swayed. You are the firstwoman he would cling to like this. It has to count for something.” Ania said, and Lisa stroked my hair.
“I am sorry I do not have encouraging words to give you like Ania, but what Ania said has to count forsomething. Alpha cares about you. He might not give you honour and might have taken you from yourfather to show dominance, but he has been loving and gentle towards you,” Lisa said, and I wipedaway my tears.
“Yes, I would feel the same way if he wasn’t the son of the late King and Isabelle, the former queen,” Isaid, and they gasped and moved away from me immediately.
I could see their dancing eyes doing the math. They understood my fear and could now see it. It wassad.
“Are you sure about what you said?” Ania asked, and I nodded.
“You have an excellent reason to be worried, Aliana. You have every reason to be scared,” Sheconfessed, and I knew I wasn’t overreacting because Ania was the positive of the two, and that waswhat she had to say. “So what do you want to do?” Lisa said with a low voice.
“I can’t do anything. I just have to wait and see,” I said, and she shook her head.
“You have to guard your heart and brace yourself for the worse. Your father killed his father and tookover his kingdom. He had to grow up in the wild with his mother until she became feral, while you grewup in his kingdom like a little princess. I am afraid for you, Aliana, because only the goddess knows histrue intentions towards you.
Guard your heart and expect to be disappointed so when it happens, you won’t be disappointed,” Lisasaid, and I laughed like a mad woman.
I was laughing at myself.novelbin
My heart was racing; fear ran in my veins, but I continued laughing.
Why was everything difficult, and why weren’t there easy solutions?
“How can I do that when I have fallen completely in love with him?” I said, and Ania came to sit downand stroked my hair. They felt sorry for me. I felt sorry for myself; my fate was in the hands of thegoddess.