Forbidden Heat

My Fear

I closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep. Lucien arrived much faster than I anticipated and I

wasn’t able to clean up anything. I was still naked under the covers and the bed was a mess for

obvious reasons.

I heard the sound of the door opening and then closing. Lucien is probably standing in this room right

now. What should I do…should I wake up? Or should I continue pretending that I’m asleep?

I heard his soft footsteps as he approached the bed and soon the bed creaked a little under his weight

as he sat down on the side of the bed.

“Wake up, Natalia,” he whispered into my ear before kissing my temple. What was it that I sensed in his

voice? Worry…and perhaps a little anger?

“Lucien…?” I spoke his name in a drowsy whisper as I pretended that I had just woken up.

“How are you feeling? Edward called me late last night to tell me that you were sick. I was going to

come over right away but he insisted that you needed to rest up first,” Lucien asked me as his warm

hand slowly stroked my head. This was so comforting and at the same time it made me feel so guilty.

Instead of lying to him about my sickness or confessing the truth to him about my emotional breakdown

and the reason for my spat with Edward, I decided to remain as truthful as possible by telling him about

my disturbing nightmare. After all, the nightmare did make me feel sort of ill.

“To be honest, I’ve been having a strange nightmare lately and because of that I haven’t been sleeping

well…” I started to explain to him.

“Do you want to tell me about your dream?” Lucien asked gently. If Natalia is having nightmares on

repeat it might be linked to her fear. Perhaps I should get a skilled psychiatrist to help her? Lucien

thought to himself silently.

I began to describe my dream of being lost in the middle of a dark forest in the rain to Lucien. He

listened intently and expressed his sympathies for me. He showed no indication that he is familiar with

an event where I went missing or got lost in a forest. So, as I half expected, the event in my dream

probably did not occur in real life after all.

“Could it be your fear of the forest and the wilderness that is plaguing your dreams?” Lucien suggested

after hearing me out.

“Perhaps. I don’t remember why I hate being in the wild so much though. Nothing like the event in the

dream happened to me before, right?” I had to ask just to make sure.

“I don’t recall anything. You’re a city girl after all. Why would you get lost in a forest? I mean, we do

have a pretty large garden in the family compound, but it clearly does not resemble a forest,” Lucien

was firm in his answer. He really seemed like he couldn’t believe that I could ever get lost in a forest

given that I never headed out to one in the first place. I guess he is right. I have to start letting go of my

fears.

“I guess you’re right. I’m truly sorry for worrying you,” I apologized for causing him trouble once again

and for not being able to tell him the whole truth.

“Rest up here and please come home at once. I will arrange some sessions with an outstanding doctor

who can consult you regarding your nightmares. You look tired, you need to sleep better,” Lucien said

to close the conversation before getting up from the bed. Glancing back once at me on the way to thenovelbin

door, he looked like he was about to say something. However, in the end, Lucien left without uttering

another word.

Phew! That was close. Lucien is right, I need to rest up now…

…

Edward was sitting on the sofa in the living room sipping tea when Lucien walked out of Natalia’s room.

“Lucien, good morning. How’s Natalia?” Edward asked after greeting his brother.

“She’s doing well. Thanks to you for taking such good care of your niece,” Lucien replied smoothly.

“I’m glad to here that she’s feeling better. I’ll take her back home later,” Edward volunteered.

“There’s no need to trouble you. Reiner will drive her back,” Lucien stated in a flat voice leaving no

room for negotiations.

Edward bit his tongue.

“Reiner. Help Natalia clean up when she gets home. I feel like she has been a bit dirtied…” Lucien’s

deep voice instructed Reiner. Then he left.

Did Lucien pick up on what happened between Natalia and I? Judging from his reactions, he is slightly

suspicious but not yet sure. I’m sure Reiner has not reported anything of the sort either. Lucien would

never believe that Reiner is in league with me which is probably the last saving grace in all this. We all

have to take extra care from now on.

…

In the back seat of his luxurious Rolls-Royce, Lucien was trying to get a hold on what just happened as

he stared at the passing scenery. Something is bothering Natalia for sure. She looked tired, weak and

sleep deprived which means that the story about her nightmare was most likely true. That can be fixed

with some counselling. What was much more concerning was the smell of a man on Natalia’s skin that

I sensed when I kissed her temple. The room smelled weakly of sex as well. It could be my imagination

but there must have been a man in Natalia’s room up until recently.

It is still groundless speculation at this point. After all, Reiner had nothing to report regarding this topic.

The possibility of Reiner colluding with Edward to keep this from me is very slim, although, still there.

Over thinking this is not going to lead me anywhere. I left Edward with a warning already; let’s see if he

heeds that warning well. My only fear is a change of heart on Natalia’s part regarding the person she

loves, which is very unlikely. As long as Natalia doesn’t love anyone besides me, I couldn’t give two

fucks…

--To be continued…